State of mind is a rather befuddling one, at least it has always been for me. My mood swings from very enthusiastic to down in the dumps back to marginally enthusiastic if not ecstatic. And those moments of down in the dumps invokes this persona of me which has too many questions and unfortunately does not have a Jeeves to answer all the questions.

These moments confuse me, I don't know what to do and the fact that I don't have a plan scares me. I hate moments of waiting for something/anything. Cause waiting makes me restless and makes my idle mind wander and it never finds what it wants. It brings out all my insecurities and makes them so tangible that I can almost smell it.That scares the living daylights out of me. It really does.

The funny thing about all this is that somewhere deep down I also know that things might not turnout like these insecurities demon portray them to be. There is a good possibility that these demons would be scared away by the kindness of reality. At least thats what I hope.

Hoping that hope doesnt give up hope on me!

P.S : It should not take a genius to figure out that this was written when i was in dumps!