The mind is awesome. It is amazing how it lets you procrastinate worrying about things. how you can just put things off! Just like that.

There are only about a zillion things I am currently worried about. One thing i do is prolong it try to postpone worrying about it . This is because I am not sure how i can solve the problem. Maybe its a way to magically wait for a solution. The school of thought that, lets wait it out. See what happens!

Another reason is because there is just so much to do that you simply cannot afford to spend time thinking about something for which you dont have an answer.

but these things do have a way of coming back to haunt you just when you are doing the most important things. But then I cant help feeling that I am just trying to escape the reality. Escaping the troubles that are haunting me. Did i just leave something behind cause i wanted to run away from it. I dont know. I dont think I want to know. The answer to that scarier than the thought itself.

anyways there is lots of work to do! Let me atleast reap some since I am sowing pretty hard